10 weeks

I finally had my first appointment at the Austin Area Birthing Center yesterday. I found out that I am only at 10 weeks, not 11 as I had previously thought...I had blood work and a whole physical exam...plus an ultrasound! They don't do them (ultrasounds) normally, but we weren't sure if we could hear a heartbeat at this point, so we opted for the ultrasound. Matt got there just in time and were able to see our little, little baby! The bright spot to the left of the circle was beating VERY fast...and we could see it pumping. It's little heart!!

It was very exciting to have some physical confirmation that he/she is there and is growing!

The morning sickness seems like it is waning. I am getting more energy slowly and am very excited to start prenatal yoga and swimming!

One final note from John Piper:

God Forms Persons (Psalm 139:13)
Another pointer (to the early church) was the profound conviction that what is happening in the womb is God’s unique and sacred person-forming work. Psalm 139:13 puts this in terms of God’s very hands-on work in the womb: “You formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.” This is God’s doing. Not ours. It is his to make. And his to end. (See also Job 31:13–15.)

(for more: http://www.desiringgod.org/ResourceLibrary/TopicIndex/47_Abortion/3528_The_Baby_in_My_Womb_Leaped_for_Joy/)

9 weeks...

I think I am in my 9th week...according to my calculations. If that is accurate then the baby is the size of a grape. Also in the 9th: "Your baby's heart finishes dividing into four chambers, and the valves start to form — as do her tiny teeth"

amazing!! even more amazing that we-people, Americans, women-ME- don't know this stuff, the intimate details of life until it is happening to our bodies. I just find that wrong.

Not just because I am ignorant, which I am, but because desperate women do desperate things because of ignorance. Because someone told them, "it is not alive." It, meaning the life that is growing in their body!!

Before I was sick all day long, I would fantasize about having a conversation with someone about abortion, while I am with child. My goal is to use the ridiculous logic that if I was hit by a drunk driver, the driver would be charged with double homicide. But, if I wanted to get an abortion, no one would press charges. BUT, what about the double homicide? The driver that took TWO lives. Well suddenly, if I deem that second life 'burdensome' then its not a life. So the thing inside of me is defined by its termination. If I wanted it to be gone = not alive, if I had baby room plans and registries set up for the little tyke = alive. THE LOGIC HERE DOESN'T HOLD!!!

So, thanks for letting me practice and conversation I PRAY I get to have soon:)